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December 10th, 2010
12:42 am - hurt, suppressed, deloved
different people communicate differently with the friends they love.
feeling uncomfortable, and me not putting myself in your shoes to think, two different issues.
i did.
it's that jealousy within yourself you expect me to adjust the way i communicate with my friends. Have you spared a thought for my feelings then?
It's always, or rather most of the times, it's about you, feeling uncomfortable and i have to do adjustments for you, isnt it?
When i have done adjustments for you, you couldnt have tried the least for me. That's how much it confuses me.
Love? is it?
or is it just possessiveness, out of jealousy?
It isnt i am not sensitive enough, it's just the way you have to look at things around. But i guess you dont. And just so you know, in life, you have to be flexible. I hate being controlled. I have been controlled all my life. Dont wish to talk about that anymore.
And when im controlled, you should be well aware of what kind of a person i will become.
If i cant be happy, i will work things around for myself to become happier. dont allow me to do so. cos you know you cant.
would you rather the truth,
or i hide?
i had said my piece.
Current Mood:  discontent
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November 23rd, 2010
12:33 am - i know i did.
you see the worst in me, assume things your way. There is always no other ways you'd view my point though i've tried explaining to you. At the end of the conversation, you still think i am the one whom is to blame.
my behaviour may have inflicted a certain amount of anger in you. i tried to change, but you didnt. still the same, you'd insist the way you want things to be how you see them. you never allow anyone to correct you, but you always want to correct others. it's obvious. you think you've given alot too, but it was just "that" much. reflections, i did. have you? cos it seems to me somehow i owe things to you.
whether you think i have not tried or do anything about it, i know it well enough whether i did or not. and i know if im not appreciated, things will eventually work out my way. you will never see how much you've inflicted in me, cos whatever i say, never mean anything to you. right from the start. Given the conversation we had earlier, it's clear. That you want things done your way, to your expectations. and sad to say, though i've tried, it's never enough for you.
i know where im heading. The path with light, has always been there,waiting. It's just a turn for me to take.
my leave, soon enough.
i love you, though there isnt suppose to be a limit, i see that i need.
cos im always the one taking the blame.
even you running away to other girls, it has always been me.
there was never once a you being at fault.
Admitting to a mistake sincerely, and giving in by apologising, it's a two whole different issue.
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November 19th, 2010
10:14 am - what do i call that?
oh yes,
overwhelmed.
that's the word.
Current Mood:  crazy
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November 18th, 2010
10:32 pm - hurry back!
with all that i see, it reminds me of you.
Ask how many times you came across my mind,
i would tell you honestly that it was just once.
Because you never left my mind since.
imysm
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11:16 am - bla.
Shopping with mum started really bad yesterday. i hated that feeling, like she didnt even bother -.- plus my maid was sucha woodblock i wanted to vomit blood in her face.
But i've got 2 pairs of heels when mummy promised to not buy anymore for me. HEHE. Her heels breaking down on her was a great advantage for me. Cant help but feel so happy about it. Was looking for my christmas dress, but i still cant find any. AW ): i might just stick to wearing my maxidress then.
So class was kinda quiet today but i love my team <3
I miss you. Please hurry back my lil' D ): Getting your calls yesterday, made me mad happy though. IMISSYOU!
Current Mood:  bouncy
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